Living and Life

I really don’t know what to do,
I wish I could just simply tell you,
I get more depressed every day,
I’m lost and I cannot find my way.

I wish you could fully understand,
I feel my final time is now at hand,
I wish God would take me today,
Sadly, I know that is not His way.

What is there truly left for me in life,
Except more suffering, pain & strife,
I pray to God daily for help and relief,
I wish I could have more faith or belief.

Please forgive me Lord when I am weak,
Help me find all the answers that I seek.
Please God hear all that I truly confess,
Forgive my sins and help me be blessed,

I promise to work harder each & every day,
To trust in You and follow Your Son’s way.
I know it’s only by the free gift of Your Grace,
That in Heaven I will always have a place!!

By: Larry Shawn Cagle
01/2017

My Gift

To My Wife Vicki:

I will never forget when you first stood next to me,
I knew that together in life, we were truly meant to be.
Never before had I felt a soul so innocent and pure,
God had designed us to be as one, my heart was sure.
Your beauty was magnificent both inside and out,
You were truly a gift from God and I had no doubt.
Who was I to finally find my one and only true love,
A sorry soul truly blessed, by a gift from God above.
Even though I had closed my heart and mind to all,
God planned when first together, for you I would fall.
Even though the years together have seen good & bad,
My life with you is the greastest gift I have ever had.
Please remember that my love for you will never end,
Together forever as my soulmate and my best friend.

By: Larry Shawn Cagle

God’s Way

We are given a chance to live,
Always God’s grace gives,
Those who accept the gift,
Adding souls He lifts,
Honor & Glory from above,
True perfect love,
With Him you are free,
Hope we all see,
Praise, Honor and Glory to Him,
Saved from all sin,
Nothing left except His word,
His truth is heard,
Sadly some will not live,
Still He gives,
Eternal Joy for all to see,
Forever with Thee!!

By Larry Shawn Cagle
12/2016

Lost In Life

Down the road of life I travel each day,
Lost and confused not knowing my way.
Walking alone on this path & without care,
Dealing daily with people trying to be fair.
Burdens I carry weigh heavy on my mind,
A normal part of my life with more to find.

Each day goes by with no hope for respite,
I pray for help as I face each daily plight.
Who am I to ask for help from my grief,
A single soul among many hoping for relief.
With no choices ahead and still losing my way,
The only hope is to fall to my knees and pray.

Pray to the One who created all that there is & that will be,
He is the only One in life with a plan that can set me free.
Free from the pain I experience each day as it goes by,
Not knowing just what to do and always wondering way.
Now I can choose to have eternal hope or great despair,
I trust in God Almighty who truly loves me & always cares!!

By Larry Shawn Cagle
12/2014

Experiencing God’s Love

By: Larry Shawn Cagle
December 20, 2014

This is about an amazing experience I had that occurred quite suddenly and was completely unexpected. When this happened, I was not praying or meditating. I was not reading the Bible or other theological styled book.  I was not in some deep contemplation about God and the universe. I was not reasoning or pondering man’s existence.  I was simply considering the accuracy of a Cable program that my wife and I had just finished viewing.

My unbelievable experience happened in the Fall of 2004.  My wife and I had just finished watching a cable program on the original History Channel concerning people who “claim” to see Saints, Angles, Spirits or the Virgin Mary on a somewhat frequent basis.  Overall, the program was at best, fair to very poor in quality.  Plus, the individuals who were highlighted seemed to be somewhat out of touch with reality.  I do not think I could believe these people because they seemed to be scripted and somewhat shallow.  After the show ended, I decided to surf the internet for awhile.  I went to our spare bedroom, the one that we used as our computer room and sat down and powered on the system.  As it was slowly booting up, I started thinking about the program we had just watched and the topic that was covered. It occurred to me, how would these people or anybody really know if what they saw was real or just hallucinations or fabrications?  Also, I considered what the images they claimed to have seen could of actually been.  Were these images truly holy and from God or possibly Satanic. How would they know that they were not being deceived by Satan or his demons? The Bible states that demons can take on many forms including heavenly spirits (1 John 4:1, 2 Corinthians 11:14).  In addition, I wondered if they were only seeking their 15 minutes of fame.  How could anyone truly know and be sure that the images they experienced, like the one’s we just saw on the History Channel, were real, imagined, holy or demonic??

As I was sitting there reflecting on the questions I had just asked myself while waiting for the system to fully boot up, I suddenly and unexpectedly had an experience that is still hard for me to fully explain. This experience forever change my life and my perception of life, God and His love.  What I experienced, for that magnificent moment, was God’s presence and His love.

I will try to explain how powerful and suprising experiencing God’s presence was, but unfortunately, I know that will not be possible.  I know all my words will fall short of expressing the unimaginable magnitude of what happened.  However, I will do my best to explain what I felt and discovered by my Godly experience.

When I first felt God’s presence, I noticed that everything I was either stressed or distressed about, including all I was worrying and concerned about was gone, vanished, did not exist anymore.  All those negitive feelings I had from my entire life vanished from my conscience. It was as though they never existed or they were never experienced. I then noticed that beside all the negitive feelings, thoughts, memories, etc. in my life disappearing, everything that I cared about, all the positive things in my life, had also disappeared, vanished.  They were all gone to as through they never existed.  I realized I no longer had any feelings about both the good and the bad in my life.  All the things I loved in this world no longer mattered or meant anything to me. My family, my wife, our pets, everything and anything of this world that I loved or had ever loved or cared about, along with all the things hated, was no longer part of my existence.  All my experiences and anything that was part of me and my life, including everything that was not part of my life, was gone and had no meaning to me.  I was now completely seperated from this world and no longer part of the world.  Everything that was part of this world no longer had any meaning to me.  The good and the bad of life was no longer relevant and I was no longer connected in anyway, shape, or form to this world.  I was physically here but that was the extent of my connection to this world. I was no longer emotionally, mentally, or even spiritually connected to this world.  As I stated before, I was actually seperated from everything that existed in this world and it no longer meant anything because of God’s presence.  His presence had completely seperated me from this world and anything that related to this world.  I was totally and absolutely free from this world. Beyond any doubt, this was the most intense, strange and unbelievable surprise (gift or blessing) I had ever experienced in my life.  At least until what happened next.

What I then noticed or felt next was the most pure, the most precious, perfect and complete, intense and fulfilling love that could ever be imagined. This love literally penetrated every part of my body, every cell and every atom.  It penetrated the essence of my being. I felt God’s love down to my very soul.  It was so intense and fulfilling I realized that this love could and would give me absolutely and unequivocally everything I would ever need, want or desire.  I relealized I would not required food to live as this love could give me the all the nutrition I needed. I realized I would no longer require air to breathe as this love could supply the very air I needed to live. This love gave me absolutely everything I could ever need or want. Plus, I discovered there was nothing else outside of this warm, exquisite, wonderful, beautiful, magnificent, precious, perfect and Divine Godly love.  All my perceptions, all my senses, everything was consumed by this love. There are really no word I have or words I know of that can fully express God’s love. The Bible states that you can have anything you desire in Heaven. If Heaven gives you everything you need, want or desire, I know that God’s love is all I would ever want.  So for that brief period I think I was expecting a small part of Heaven.  Even after +12 years, I cannot image anything greater than that warm embrace of God’s love that I briefly had.

I do not know how long this experience lasted as time seemed to have stopped. Or at least, my perception of time. I think it only lasted for a few seconds to maybe a minute or two.  I am not sure because I was disconnected from this world briefly. I do not think anyone here on earth could handled a love that powerful and intense for any longer period of time. I believe if it lasted for any great length of time I would of quit existing as the person I was. If I had continued to experience God’s love, I would not had left that chair or room. I would of sat there until the end of time.  The love from God gave me everything I needed or would ever need and nothing else mattered to me.

One of the lasting effect of God’s love is related death and dying.  I had very little concern about death and dying once I became a Christian and understood God’s word.  Since I have experienced God’s love I know no longer have any fear or reservations concerning death and dying.  I can say with a doubt that I look forward to my death because I know what is waiting for me once I am in Heaven.

I apologize for the parts were I rambled attempting to explain how I felt and how God’s love felt.  No matter how many times I have attempted to tell my experience, my words always fall short of the actual experience I experienced.

I hope I was able to give you an inkling of the overwhelming magnitude and the sheer intensity of the pure, perfect and divine love from God that I experienced.  I still wonder why God allowed me to experience His presence and His love.  I do not know if it was an answer to what I was thinking or some other reason. Maybe there will be a time when it is fully clear to me why God touched my life is this way!!

Without You

Lord, we cannot make it in this world today without You,
You give us the strength we all need to make it through.
Only fools have hope for a better life by going at it alone,
You give us strength to have no fear facing the unknown.

Now each day closes with us nearer to the final end,
Soon we will hear Your Son calling on us all to ascend.
We will avoid the suffering coming to those who denied,
The truth that You raised Your Son 3 days after He died.

To many are foolish by refusing the power of Your Grace,
The only chance they have to accept Your saving embrace.
Is it pride or foolishness when they give Satan the power,
To decide how they will live and die in their remaing hours. 

It was God our Father who created us & all that does exists,
Who then offered his only Son for all our sins by the crucifix.
Never has there been a greater sacrifice by given by anyone,
His death paid all our debts so our salvation could be won!!

By Larry Shawn Cagle
02/18/2017

When It Comes

I often wonder what most people are going to say,
When they realize it’s time for their Judgement Day.
Will they tell their Judge that they really didn’t see,
The sins they committed had a cost and were not free.

That all the suffering they caused others in their life,
Was just part of surviving their own pain and strife.
That life was only bearable when they had some fun,
So they should not be judged to harshly by Your Son.

Each of us always has a choice in life before we finally die,
To accept salvation that is from the Son of the Most High.
Remember to stay in God’s light & on the path He planned,
So on that day we will all be together in the Promised Land!!

By Larry Shawn Cagle
10/16/2016